Throughout the day, I always have a blizzard of ideas for things to write about here, but now that I actually have a moment (just a short one, because I am v v sleepy), I can’t think of one I want to write about.
Here’s a quick thing I’ve noticed: Lately, lots of people have been asking me how I’m “feeling,” in a deep and sincere way. Really, I “feel” fine. I never felt sick or unwell from the cancer itself, just from all the treatments & surgeries I had to treat it. I think that’s pretty common for lots of cancers. The cancer itself might not make you sick, it’s what they use to try to fight the cancer that makes you feel like hell. My cancer was literally just a bump on the skin. And I really, really DON’T want to have any other symptoms, like headaches, bone aches, stomach pains, etc. because that means it spread (BAD). So, very luckily, I feel fine right now.
The other weird thing about people asking me this is that this is exactly what I used to ask Alicia. I felt like it was giving her an opportunity to talk about cancer if she wanted, or to talk about anything else if she didn’t. I’m not sure if that’s what I was actually doing, but that’s how I felt. Personally, I feel like someone could probably just straight up ask, “What’s the latest on the cancer front?” and I would be fine with it, but it hasn’t happened yet, so who knows 🙂
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Well, I was just going through pictures of Emmie to see if there was a good one I could post here to add some cuteness and I just ended up missing her sweet face so much (she was asleep when I got home from work). So I think I’ll sneak into her room and just look at her for a little while before I go to bed. Good night, friends!